1) Wake up at 7:44(ish). Check Facebook. Be amazed at the people awake before you, and the fact that you naturally woke up at this time. Blame work for the fact that you naturally wake up by 8:30.
2) Go back to sleep. You know you want to.
3) Wake up at about 10:14 to your husband rifling around in the kitchen. Realize that it's after 10, and that you just had a dream about running the WDW Marathon... Excited, or nervous about not being well-prepared?
4) Laze about for a bit. Contemplate reading after blogging about your running dream.
5) Take the clothes out of the dryer.
6) Look up races, and daydream about doing them. Include your own little cheering squad in said daydreams, as you look up two marathons.
7) ... Decide to go for a run today. Three weeks ago was exhausting, putting in over 40 miles. Two weeks ago had a little bit in my new Saucony Ride 6 running shoes. Last week had next-to-nothing, and my skin recognized (and complained!) about the difference. Why not start this week off with some miles, and get used to your new shoes? Contemplate before or after work, and decide that both might work if you get your butt in gear. Feel disappointment/discouragement over the lack of a fan in in the apartment complex's workout room.
8) Check the runDisney training schedules for Dumbo and Dopey. Exhale in relief that you're ahead of schedule, and not behind.
Yes, ladies and gents, that is my morning to right now (11:25 AM CDT).
It's so amazing that a year and a half ago, I was contemplating running. Vaguely. I think I started in either late February or early March of 2012 - I don't remember which.
Back then, a 5K sounded reasonable, yet intimidating. A 10K sounded scary as hell. A 7-miler, for one of my dream races, sounded like, well, a dream... And a nightmare all the same. No way I was ready for it! A half marathon was, at best, hilarious. A marathon? Shoot me in the foot.
Now it's July 7. 23 days until I'm 23. I've done 4(?) 5Ks, a half marathon, a virtual half marathon, 4 virtual 10Ks, 2 virtual 1-milers (and still have one to go!).
Oh, and all of those virtual runs were in that exhausting week two weeks ago.
Can anybody say "Learn to balance"? That's what I'm still working on.
In the next 3 months I have... that virtual 1-miler... 5K or 10K for my own virtual run. I have another virtual race on the 25th (I forget what distance, though...). 2.3 miles for a virtual birthday run for me. A virtual 10K for Harry Potter's birthday.
Yes, you read that right. I'll say it again: A 10K for Harry Potter's birthday.
Yes, I know when that is. It's the day after mine (and 10 years before - holy geez, Harry Potter is going to be 33!! LOL)
Anyway... Not too much in August, other than THE START OF THE DUMBO DOUBLE DARE!!!!
Yes, that was important enough that it needed to be in all caps.
Be glad I didn't bold, underline, and italicize it ;)
So I have the 10K on August 31, and the half on September 1. A virtual.... Some-distance-or-other (Nerd Herd Running's Banned Book run). The Prairie Dog Virtual Half. And I'm waiting to see what else I cram in these next few months, or in October. Hoping to add a couple more half marathons, or a marathon in there somewhere.
...
Must consult with the hubs. One of my biggest cheerleaders, he also brings me back down if I start having race mania - that is, trying to sign up for every race I possibly can.
Sometimes I'm not the practical one. Go figure (insert eye-roll).
Now, as far as that WDW Marathon dream... It was definitely one of those that first made me think I was worried about being unprepared - which I am, but I wasn't expecting to dream about it! Haven't had a running dream in a while.
I dreamed that everybody was ready to go, and I... Was still in my pajamas. At the start line. And all of my stuff was on a school bus... And the school bus had driven away. So there I am, running and looking for the school bus. I find the bus, and have to dig through giant piles to find my bag of clothes. I even found my sleeping bag! After a while I finally find my clothes... Found my running shorts, but couldn't find my sports bra or a shirt.
As I was about to give up, I found my sports bra. Nevermind shoes or a shirt, because I don't remember how those cropped up. So I run back to the start line, and my dad's waiting for me! Weirdness number one (well... Yeah...). Next weirdness, my husband is nowhere in sight! My dad is wielding my DSLR, looking super confused.
...
And the last wave has already started. Nevermind that I should've been in the second-to-last corral. I crossed the start line about 30 seconds after everyone else... And joined the group in getting lost in this little catle-like-thing that depicted the homes of different Disney characters, and you had to find your way out. Included running down stairs (or jumping down small holes, if you preferred that to the stairs).
Then I woke up. Anti-climactic, I know. But the husband was moving around in the kitchen, and it was after 10, so it was definitely time to get up.
Well, looks like it's time for yours truly to get moving. Hope everyone has a great day!
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Sunday, July 7, 2013
Sunday, April 15, 2012
I am determined to reach my goals.
I did W4D1 last night, and I tried something a little different with it. I stayed around the same speed that I usually do, but instead of walking at 4.0 MPH (which I usually try to do) I decided to jog it!
I tell you, I now know the purpose did sweat bands.
They say that females glisten - or at least that's what they used to say?? I'm a real female, and I was sweating like you wouldn't believe.
But it felt good to have another accomplishment under my belt :)
And I really am excited at the possibility of being able to do a run on the base's runway. I just hope I can work my way up to it (for this year as opposed to next year, I mean).
When one of my friends graduates college next year, we're going to look at starting a photography business. I'm beyond psyched for it! We both love photography. And talk about perfect timing, because I'll have graduated (again) then, too!
We've already got ideas about setting up a website, promotional photographs to draw people in, getting models, backdrops, you name it. I think it would just be a matter of getting everything gathered and getting it ready to go - you know, in addition to working on our Photoshop skills, and working to hone the photography skills we have.
One way or another, I think it'll be amazing.
I started working on one of my provisional counseling licenses, and it turns out I may have to find a new place to go so that I can get my hours.
My supervisor doesn't have any disciplinary action on her license, but the petition for it is there. I'll have to call the DHHS on Monday to see if I should go ahead and find a new place to get my hours.
It's all a little frustrating, and rather daunting. I finally decided to do it, and then found a place to get my hours in (after calling many places). I just hope I can do it. I just may have to branch out a little as far as distance, because I was trying a little closer to home.
You know what? I know I can get it done. It may just take some time, that's all.
I tell you, I now know the purpose did sweat bands.
They say that females glisten - or at least that's what they used to say?? I'm a real female, and I was sweating like you wouldn't believe.
But it felt good to have another accomplishment under my belt :)
And I really am excited at the possibility of being able to do a run on the base's runway. I just hope I can work my way up to it (for this year as opposed to next year, I mean).
When one of my friends graduates college next year, we're going to look at starting a photography business. I'm beyond psyched for it! We both love photography. And talk about perfect timing, because I'll have graduated (again) then, too!
We've already got ideas about setting up a website, promotional photographs to draw people in, getting models, backdrops, you name it. I think it would just be a matter of getting everything gathered and getting it ready to go - you know, in addition to working on our Photoshop skills, and working to hone the photography skills we have.
One way or another, I think it'll be amazing.
I started working on one of my provisional counseling licenses, and it turns out I may have to find a new place to go so that I can get my hours.
My supervisor doesn't have any disciplinary action on her license, but the petition for it is there. I'll have to call the DHHS on Monday to see if I should go ahead and find a new place to get my hours.
It's all a little frustrating, and rather daunting. I finally decided to do it, and then found a place to get my hours in (after calling many places). I just hope I can do it. I just may have to branch out a little as far as distance, because I was trying a little closer to home.
You know what? I know I can get it done. It may just take some time, that's all.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
I admit to being a little confused
Who out there has a dream or a goal, something they wish they could do? Even if it's not something like "This is the job I want to do for the rest of my life," but still a dream of "I'd like to at least be able to say I've done this."
Is it weird that I'm feeling the need/desire to get all of these things done?
Like get my CNA, get ordained, become a certified life coach, renew my CPR cert... become a certified wedding planner...
I mean, to an extent I find all of these things useful - although the wedding planning bit might be excessive, but the idea stands that I might be able to use psychology as a wedding planner. Heck, they like us in sales, right??
And no time like the present to start doing things I've thought about doing, right? (within reason, of course. $500 CNA course? nooooo. gotta pick a time to do something I can *afford*)
And hey, who wouldn't want a Social Services or Activities Director in Assisted Living who can train to do a funeral? (... lol? ...)
But I feel like I'm bouncing all over the place. I don't want to use it all as "filler," just stuff to keep myself occupied... But I *do* think that some of these things will open doors for me.
The life coach bit, I'm not sure what that will really do for me, but it was recommended by a professor...
Also, I'm concerned that on a resume it'll look like I'm just "there."
I guess I'm worried that counseling may not be my "thing," although I know that this is actually quite silly, especially because I've been comparing myself (in my first semester) to people who are ready to graduate or have at least been in the program a couple years. And it'd be nice to have credentials to fall back on.
Or, at the very least, I'll be able to look at myself and go "I did something I wanted to do."
(Anyone ever read Bookends by Jane Green? Main character Cath quits her job to do what she's dreamed of doing and open a bookstore, and at her farewell party her former boss says s/he's jealous because Cath is taking the risk to do what she's dreamed of doing and the boss isn't)
I must say that I'm feeling perfectly inadequate right now.
I have a job that's willing to work around the hours I'm unavailable. Heck, just the fact that I have a job.
Not only that, but the people I work with/for are wonderful. They're really sweet, and I love popping by the office to see them. If possible, I would like to continue working there.
But the fact remains that I need a steadier full-time job. And nobody wants me. Or I look "good," but "good" is not the same thing as "good enough."
I really don't know what I'm trying to say.
I remember when the hubs and I got engaged, and I started planning our wedding... And planning with different budgets, working the breakdown of budgets, areas to skimp on, areas to not skimp on, looking at dresses, planning things, finding invitations... I really felt that at some point I wouldn't mind helping other people plan out their weddings. Even if it was just a friend (and who knows, maybe one friend's wedding can turn into a friend's friend's FRIEND'S wedding).
I guess I just have all these ideas or dreams or whatever, but no clue how to get to them and make them work.
Oh, and the CPR thing is just useful. Like if I get back into babysitting to make extra cash, lots of people want a babysitter who knows CPR. And even though my CPR cert recommends I renew it in July, I know well enough that a CPR cert really is only a year-long thing for constant training and brushing-up. The place I got it recommended redoing it at least every two years.
Heck, I still haven't forgotten about my idea of brushing up on my photography skills enough to take pictures for people - even amateur wedding/engagement/family ones, as long as they're nice. As well as maybe becoming a bartender.
I look at all these things... Bartending, photography, wedding planning, being a CNA... and I see how much more money I could make, how much MORE I could contribute to the life my husband and I live, without always being concerned about if I can make enough to get rent paid and pay for gasoline and groceries and bills and, well, LIFE... How I would be able to do things like work more reasonable hours (yes, I know brides are not always reasonable!) and actually have free time around the same time as my husband, as opposed to only being free whenever he's at work or has homework to do.
I'm frustrated.
And I'm thinking.
Oh, I also got ordained last night by Universal Life Church Monastery (ULC) as well as American Marriage Ministries (AMM). Although I ordered the certificate from ULC. It's cheaper, and I don't need to register in the state of Nebraska. LOL.
So at least there's one thing off my list that I don't have to complain that I never did.
That is all. For now :)
Is it weird that I'm feeling the need/desire to get all of these things done?
Like get my CNA, get ordained, become a certified life coach, renew my CPR cert... become a certified wedding planner...
I mean, to an extent I find all of these things useful - although the wedding planning bit might be excessive, but the idea stands that I might be able to use psychology as a wedding planner. Heck, they like us in sales, right??
And no time like the present to start doing things I've thought about doing, right? (within reason, of course. $500 CNA course? nooooo. gotta pick a time to do something I can *afford*)
And hey, who wouldn't want a Social Services or Activities Director in Assisted Living who can train to do a funeral? (... lol? ...)
But I feel like I'm bouncing all over the place. I don't want to use it all as "filler," just stuff to keep myself occupied... But I *do* think that some of these things will open doors for me.
The life coach bit, I'm not sure what that will really do for me, but it was recommended by a professor...
Also, I'm concerned that on a resume it'll look like I'm just "there."
I guess I'm worried that counseling may not be my "thing," although I know that this is actually quite silly, especially because I've been comparing myself (in my first semester) to people who are ready to graduate or have at least been in the program a couple years. And it'd be nice to have credentials to fall back on.
Or, at the very least, I'll be able to look at myself and go "I did something I wanted to do."
(Anyone ever read Bookends by Jane Green? Main character Cath quits her job to do what she's dreamed of doing and open a bookstore, and at her farewell party her former boss says s/he's jealous because Cath is taking the risk to do what she's dreamed of doing and the boss isn't)
I must say that I'm feeling perfectly inadequate right now.
I have a job that's willing to work around the hours I'm unavailable. Heck, just the fact that I have a job.
Not only that, but the people I work with/for are wonderful. They're really sweet, and I love popping by the office to see them. If possible, I would like to continue working there.
But the fact remains that I need a steadier full-time job. And nobody wants me. Or I look "good," but "good" is not the same thing as "good enough."
I really don't know what I'm trying to say.
I remember when the hubs and I got engaged, and I started planning our wedding... And planning with different budgets, working the breakdown of budgets, areas to skimp on, areas to not skimp on, looking at dresses, planning things, finding invitations... I really felt that at some point I wouldn't mind helping other people plan out their weddings. Even if it was just a friend (and who knows, maybe one friend's wedding can turn into a friend's friend's FRIEND'S wedding).
I guess I just have all these ideas or dreams or whatever, but no clue how to get to them and make them work.
Oh, and the CPR thing is just useful. Like if I get back into babysitting to make extra cash, lots of people want a babysitter who knows CPR. And even though my CPR cert recommends I renew it in July, I know well enough that a CPR cert really is only a year-long thing for constant training and brushing-up. The place I got it recommended redoing it at least every two years.
Heck, I still haven't forgotten about my idea of brushing up on my photography skills enough to take pictures for people - even amateur wedding/engagement/family ones, as long as they're nice. As well as maybe becoming a bartender.
I look at all these things... Bartending, photography, wedding planning, being a CNA... and I see how much more money I could make, how much MORE I could contribute to the life my husband and I live, without always being concerned about if I can make enough to get rent paid and pay for gasoline and groceries and bills and, well, LIFE... How I would be able to do things like work more reasonable hours (yes, I know brides are not always reasonable!) and actually have free time around the same time as my husband, as opposed to only being free whenever he's at work or has homework to do.
I'm frustrated.
And I'm thinking.
Oh, I also got ordained last night by Universal Life Church Monastery (ULC) as well as American Marriage Ministries (AMM). Although I ordered the certificate from ULC. It's cheaper, and I don't need to register in the state of Nebraska. LOL.
So at least there's one thing off my list that I don't have to complain that I never did.
That is all. For now :)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
It's hard to believe how things change in 3 years
Today as I was browsing Facebook in my spare time (like I normally do, quasi-procrastinating on term papers), I saw that one kid I went to high school with now apparently has his own photography business! How cool is that?
http://www.milsteadphoto.com/#!portfolio
http://www.facebook.com/pages/John-Milstead-Photography/137634336308423?sk=info
(A little promotion never hurt. I'm all for showing love and helping people achieve their goals! If you have a Facebook you should definitely head on over an "like" his page!)
Not only that, but this guy I REALLY had a thing for back in 8th and 9th grade - and I mean I had a crush so huge it was embarrassing; I really don't know how he never found out, because everyone else did - well, apparently this kid has made a million dollars!
Don't know how, but his Facebook status about it most definitely wasn't joking!
I find it interesting, because they're both something out of the ordinary.
I mean, there are kids I went to school with who are engaged and/or married, who have kids (and then there are the ones you never would've pegged for it! talk about surprising), who joined the military and have been overseas (or just don't live in Nebraska anymore).
There's also my former best friend, who's done marathons and is training for an Iron Man, who has been to Africa and back...
It makes me sit back and wonder what I'm doing with my life.
There are those moments where I wonder why it feels like I'm doing NOTHING meaningful with my life, despite the fact that I'll have achieved a Bachelor of Science in Psychology in 3 years and will be starting on my Masters of Science in the Fall - a lot farther than a bunch of people who've graduated before me.
...
Not that those people haven't done something with their lives. They're far more established in themselves than I am.
It makes me realize some of the things that I want with my life.
I DON'T want to be the person that gets pregnant right after getting married. Kids are adorable, but they scream, they cry, they poop... They're basically a mini person that doesn't pay their way and you have to keep an eye on them constantly. I'm sorry, but I can wait a while to have some kids.
I don't want to be the person that gives up her hopes and dreams for someone else. I haven't given up what I want to do with my life because of FH - I've molded my dreams to include him in them. Being with him hasn't changed who I am. I'm still the same person.
BTW, FH = "future husband." Just for anyone wondering.
(Flashback to the girl from high school who was rude to EVERYBODY and now has a kid... Is it bad that whenever I think of her I have to wonder if her kid has made her any nicer? She certainly looked nicer in pictures, and I mean mentally/emotionally nicer, not physically nicer).
At the same time, it makes me proud of my achievements. I'll be completing my degree in less than a month - heck, I'll have just walked across the stage at graduation a month from today!
I'll be starting my M.S. in the fall (or in the summer, if I decide to go that route).
I'm getting married in less than 2 months.
I have certifications, and I'm proud of where I work... Yeah, I need another job or to extend my hours on the one that I work, but I'm proud of my job, of what I do. I've heard people tell me that it takes someone special to do in-home senior care, and I don't do anything medical, and sometimes I'm frustrated (yeah, people get frustrated at work), but I feel like I'm doing something good. And I enjoy that.
Well, I'm out for now. I could keep talking about this, but I have to get going and take care of some things.
http://www.milsteadphoto.com/#!portfolio
http://www.facebook.com/pages/John-Milstead-Photography/137634336308423?sk=info
(A little promotion never hurt. I'm all for showing love and helping people achieve their goals! If you have a Facebook you should definitely head on over an "like" his page!)
Not only that, but this guy I REALLY had a thing for back in 8th and 9th grade - and I mean I had a crush so huge it was embarrassing; I really don't know how he never found out, because everyone else did - well, apparently this kid has made a million dollars!
Don't know how, but his Facebook status about it most definitely wasn't joking!
I find it interesting, because they're both something out of the ordinary.
I mean, there are kids I went to school with who are engaged and/or married, who have kids (and then there are the ones you never would've pegged for it! talk about surprising), who joined the military and have been overseas (or just don't live in Nebraska anymore).
There's also my former best friend, who's done marathons and is training for an Iron Man, who has been to Africa and back...
It makes me sit back and wonder what I'm doing with my life.
There are those moments where I wonder why it feels like I'm doing NOTHING meaningful with my life, despite the fact that I'll have achieved a Bachelor of Science in Psychology in 3 years and will be starting on my Masters of Science in the Fall - a lot farther than a bunch of people who've graduated before me.
...
Not that those people haven't done something with their lives. They're far more established in themselves than I am.
It makes me realize some of the things that I want with my life.
I DON'T want to be the person that gets pregnant right after getting married. Kids are adorable, but they scream, they cry, they poop... They're basically a mini person that doesn't pay their way and you have to keep an eye on them constantly. I'm sorry, but I can wait a while to have some kids.
I don't want to be the person that gives up her hopes and dreams for someone else. I haven't given up what I want to do with my life because of FH - I've molded my dreams to include him in them. Being with him hasn't changed who I am. I'm still the same person.
BTW, FH = "future husband." Just for anyone wondering.
(Flashback to the girl from high school who was rude to EVERYBODY and now has a kid... Is it bad that whenever I think of her I have to wonder if her kid has made her any nicer? She certainly looked nicer in pictures, and I mean mentally/emotionally nicer, not physically nicer).
At the same time, it makes me proud of my achievements. I'll be completing my degree in less than a month - heck, I'll have just walked across the stage at graduation a month from today!
I'll be starting my M.S. in the fall (or in the summer, if I decide to go that route).
I'm getting married in less than 2 months.
I have certifications, and I'm proud of where I work... Yeah, I need another job or to extend my hours on the one that I work, but I'm proud of my job, of what I do. I've heard people tell me that it takes someone special to do in-home senior care, and I don't do anything medical, and sometimes I'm frustrated (yeah, people get frustrated at work), but I feel like I'm doing something good. And I enjoy that.
Well, I'm out for now. I could keep talking about this, but I have to get going and take care of some things.
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